Friday, August 26, 2011

table talk

I've typed about three different paragraphs, each about completely different things. I can't quite decide what I'm trying to say; in fact, the best thing I can say is, "I don't know."

I don't know! I just don't know. Ask me what my favorite color is, and I'll probably (most likely) tell you that it's the color orange, so I guess that wasn't the best example. 

But if you ask me what I'm doing right now, I have no clue. Ask me who I am, and I don't know. I used to know, I think... but then again, I don't know.

Being uncertain is such a weird thing. It's a state of being that I am not comfortable with. Maybe it's growing up, or maybe it's just "becoming." Who knows, really, because the time that you might figure it out... it's about over.

Seasons, houses, and hair color change, and here we are. We exist, we do.


Lillian said...

I just don't know what to say to that.

No actually I do. I think it is the process. I keep saying, "wasn't I supposed to be through these feelings?" And I realize that life is a process of changes, sometimes we are settled and then life throws us a curve ball or we just get into a "growth spurt" and we're back to those questions. I don't like it either. I like to be settled, but since I don't want to be stagnant . . .


Amylou said...

I did follow that! I did!!
because I've been there. I'm frequently there.

And because I'm a disney movie freak....this is me...singing a song to you...
"The thing I love most about rivers can't step in the same river twice. The water's always changing, always flowing..."

So there you go. It made sense.

Have a lovely weekend Liz!!!

Gwiddle said...

TRU DAT! For real though, I am always changing what I like and what I don't. I think it's safe to say your normal;) haha. I hope you have a good weekend<3

Heather said...

This is one of my favorite posts...

Funny how that works.

I am glad you're in my life, ma'am.
I know what it is to be be stuck in the in-between... to be not sure of what you're not sure of.

The only thing I DO know is that I don't like it. But one day it will all be a memory.

But I read this after your most recent I know you're choosing to be happy and choosing not to dwell on the possibilities that are not realities.

Soooo good job. Chin up, buttercup ;)

Heather said...

Oh and the whole color thing made me laugh...out loud. SOOOO thanks. ha

Fin Ryder said...

I am just writing a blog post about this as I read blogs.. coming across this was serendipitous.

Funny how we can point to things we like and things we do but it is so hard to write about WHO we are on levels that escape the physical. I'm with you on that.

I agree with Gwiddle too - those physical (and inner) things seem to always be changing..